Am i silly?Am i stupid?Am i.....

It's already a week since he angry at me,am i really talked without thinking?Am i silly?I don't know.May be sometime or most of the time i talked nonesense,without i myself realising it.But again..why he is the person who noticed all these????
I wish i have a heart made by metal or iron or ferum i don't know.BUt i wish to have a heart which does not get influnced by emotion,how i wish.May be i should choose to remove my Limbic system,so i won't be sad,unhappy,depress.
I kept telling myself to be generous,to be patience,to be polite,to be whatever as long as must be good and kind.Again i can't help myself had funny feeling,then started to act weird.I cannot continue to be like these.
Never stop telling myself to be patience,kind and thinking in other's shoe....and must pratice it....