2006 New Year Dinner

Just come back 2006 new year dinner in restaurant opposite Silpo,went to suprise ivan with a really early happy birthday.I was supposed to get my histology sign today,end up i didn't coz i never study placenta.Ch and Alvin sign already of course,as usual they are HERO of 211.
Tomorrow is last day of 2005.What have i done for the whole year?I don't know,i think the things i should have change i didn't.Wishing i throw everything bad in 2005 and carry on with a new head start with 2006.
Today mimi went to McD "saboi" Ch& I food.So touched,He he,he didn't buy me burger coz he said i am on diet,what a good reason hor?ha ha.Never mind i am very happy with that Cherry pie i got from mimi.It's sweet.
Going to zzzzz.Night.

Merry Christmas

Joyful,Merry Christmas.I have a really good time in dom kultura yesterday.Haven't been feeling like that since ages.Ho ho ho,Merry X mas.We took lots of photos,had been crazy,throwing each other snow on the way back.That's really fun. :).

Where to start???

I have too much to say but don't know where to start.Trying to log in for past few days,of course i can't,so haven't been updated my blog for quite long.
Wasn't feeling good just now,but now i am absolutely ok.i talked to my mummy,daddy and my sister for almost 2 hours.That bill going to cost my dad a "BOMB",oh no.ha ha but i am happy.I am really happy yo talk to them.
Missing home,less than a month to go home.I didn't on diet.i am going back fat this time,oh no,i couldn't achieve my target this time,too bad :(.I always said want to diet end up,go hay firer....
Miss home,miss mummy,daddy and of course my siblings.

Saturday Dinner by fishey Gal-Ing Lee

How is that?Sweet and sour pork by Fishey gal-Ing Lee Saturday night.Of course,the best!!!!

Snowing

SNOWING....Outside is snowing,2nd time during this winter.The 1st time was Ivy's parent came.One month ago,yesterday the weather is not that cold,lukily.We went for meeting then we went to "Marakhan"We sat there for almost 3 hours i think.We ate a lot a lot of suffs yesterday.Ha ha,yummy yummy mutton saslik.
Too many things happen since my last blogging.Don't know who is the person who actually pretend to be "Ivy" started to tagging in my tag board.Am i really doing anything wrong?Why?I don't know he or she whether with good intention or bad,but can't care too much.Internet is an world wide thing and everyone has right to do what they like.Anyway thank you for those who visit my blog and tagging.Thank u for bother reading it though it's boring and reading my same nagging ang nagging.May be unconsiously i am blogging the same things,sorry.
Yesterday was Olympaid for all second years student.Opps,saying bout this.All those who studying in Ukraine will know bout this.It's a 1 and 1/2 hours test,200 objectives out of almost 3000 anatomical questions we need to memorise and answer it.I am feeling bad about that,i have my part to study,i didn't finish studying my part too.So unlucky,may be it's god punishment,it actually came out those few topics which i am supposed to study.Luckiy i still manage to cover some of them,if not i wll be the killer for our group.I don't mean to do so,but may be like what Cheryl said,we knew how to say sorry but never trying to change.I don't know.I knew that is my fault,being irresponsible.I knew for sure he will be angry,but anything could be done,it's too late.That is what i mean by being a better person.I knew no one could be perfect.I just want to be whom i supposed to,i want to do whatever which i could,which is in my capability.I don't want to hurt anybody who loves me.
Except sorry,what else could i say????Being sorry is useless at this time,praying hard hopefully can pass it,that's all.

A kind person?A good person?

What is definition of being good and kind?I don't know,but for sure,i think i am still not doing my best in my life.I want to be a better person,more knowlegeble,prettier,slimmer,knew more things,and be kinder than who i am today.But how?I don't know how.I think i always do not well enough.I didn't treat my friend good enough,towards my family,what have i done?and what can i do?I still can do better.
Aim of life is seeing others happy,i would be happy too.Am i too shallow?Am i manage to do so?Am i manage to make everyone happy?Never mind,only can try my best.

Happy Belated birthday to our baby Girl-Vinvie

Happy belated birthday to Vinvie Hee.Supposed to blog this yesterday but can't log in internet :( too bad.Don't know how did she doing with her 22nd birthday?Hopefully she enjoyed the surprise party we had for her.Ha ha.Really suprising,wasn't it?
This few days haven't been feeling good,hmm.why?Secret ha ha,ladies secret.I didn't feel good with what he did,but when come to think about that,i only make my own life difficult.He will be still continuing laughing in class,talking very normally,going to class as usual.The only thing is it distracted my daily life.I don't like this kind of feeling.Hai hai,tell me what can i do?How can girl be less emotional?
A month to go home,less than a month to exam.Must "gambate"so do everybody else.Jia you.

Shopping again

Yesterday we went out for shopping for the intention to help only Mimi to buy a pair of casual shoes and a pair of cool jeans.End up,opps....four of us buy our own stuffs.Obviously Mimi still the coolest.he had an over new look from head to toes.He had a pair of very cool white leather shoes from Polland,a new khakis colour jacket and a pair of jeans with design.Ha ha i m happy because he managed to get his stuff.I knew him,he seldom went out shopping,if he went out he will want it to be a harvestful and fruitful shopping,if not he will think that is wasting of time.(Hmmm...Mimi thinks going out with us is wasting of time?Ha ha!!!!)
Ivy baby bought a skirt which is for children one,but..the impressed one is although she bought a children skirt she no needs to buy a largest one.How hope one day i would be like that.Mission impossible for me.Too bad.Vinvie bought a pair of "Vinvie style" jeans.I loved the design of the pockets.I think it's so sweet.Pink,blue,yellow stipes.She looked so slim in that,yet everyone knows girls well,she complaint that she looked fat.Ha ha guess what i bought?A skirt,a brown colour skirt for 75 grivven,for my size i think it's cheap.I am so happy bout that,of course need to thank my fashion consultant-Ms Ivy Lam.
He he already mentioned all the happiness and victory products we got from shopping.Now going to tell what sad thing,ar...embaressed thing that happen to me in Rinak(Market in Russian language).Yesterday i wore my expensive maroon colour suede boots with heel for shopping,since very seldom get to go out with him,so if possible could look as pretty as i can.but....hai....The most embarrest thing that could happen to me is my left heel drop out when i was walking down stair case.I was so embaressed.Ha ha.Thinking that what if next time if u go on first date,if this thing happen again.I am so speechless.
However so nice of him,running around to find a cobbler to repair my boots.We found one,but the unfriendly uncle never said a word but kept on shaking his head meant no no,i am not going to help you.Then he found a cafe,and we sit there and drinking tea.Poor him,we went out earlier so he can have more time to shop but end up we stuck in the so not pretty cafe,drinking tea.Luckily Ivy and baby girl haven't go out yet.For the first time,their slow motion help me man.They sent me my shoes.Luckily,again hai... another thing,i was wearing a 3 quarter pant.I am going get freezed,yesterday highest only 4'c,lowest -3'c.End up i bought a pair of leg warmer and wear a flat sneakers which doesn't suit my outfit at all.I think all the russians looked at me,but who cares.
At night we had steamboat because baby girl feel like eating steamboat.I end up too tired and sleepy,didn't want to go back,so i slept in Ivy's princess land.Suddenly i think of him,i think for sure he won't be going back because he is going to have his camp on somewhere in Ukraine in January.Now i am pretty sure he won't be going back.But again can't do anything,not like by telling how uncomfortable u felt,how unhappy u will be,that will make things change.
But can't care so much,need to study,need to concentrate cause exam is really soon.I still want to be a doctor.This will never change.

One week

Last week,this time he was on the way in train to Kharkov,this time is not that bad because i have internet.Still remember last time when he went to church camp,it seemed very long for me.It was like ages.I felt time passed so slow.It's feeling i couldn't help.I only can tell myself don't don't.It will make u slack in ur studies.
Wow i really solute myself,i had been awake since 12.30 midnight last saturday till sunday 10 something pm.I really wondered how were i managed to do that.Must be internet which helped me stay awake,i was chatting with Eason,Ivy baby ans Vinvie baby.Of course i missed him,I did sms him.Though feel like sms him a lot but i don't know what to tell.End up i sms him not more than 5 i guess.
Last Saturday first time i saw ivy baby walking alone from hostel to meet me in bus stop,though i am worried but i think need to let her learn to be independent.Now proved that she could do it.We ended up with haverstful Shopping.Winks Winks **.Happy.
These fews days feeling funny again since thursday.Wednesday i was alright,may be PMS,may be stress.I don't know the real reason,I felt that i am easily get irittated by his word.If he said a wrong word for a day,i would be feeling unhappy for the whole day.Why?I don't want to be like that.I am envy,how can guys be so easily let go.Why can't ladies do the same????
Exact one month to state exam,my exam time table is out.8th January is Anatomy,17 January is Histology.Don't know is good or bad to have such a wide gap.My ticket flying back to Mal is also on 17th of Jan.I scared unwanted and out of expected things happen.
At first i planned to give my mum surprised, end up i coukdn't stop myself by telling her over the phone.I called back in the evening,we chat until my credit gone,a 44 minutes duration call.I miss her so much.I told her i am worried bout not passing exam,she said what can do except working hard,ya i am fully agreed.What can do except "JIA YOU" .
Jia you then.....

Happy?Joy?

What is definition of happy and joy?An item that u enjoyed at the particular moment and it stayed only in your short term memory is known as happy,joy is an item that u are happy with and it will stay in your memory.This is definition by Mimi when we on the way back from uni one day.
For me,it seemed that i never been happy from my heart since very long time ago,may be after secondary school???I don't know how to describe.I don't know anybody else understand what i mean or not.But,i think this is the problem with human growing,when the more things we see,the more so called thinking and hesitation we need to deal with.
Sometimes i felt grateful,sometimes i felt tired,exhausted to deal with things like that.Relationship among people.Do i mind what people think about me?I used to very "concerned" about what people think bout me.But now,i think no more.May be towards the person whom i really closed to,i don't want them to be sad,i don't want my said wrong things make them sad,i don't want my over sensitive make their life hard.I mind what they think about me,because i want them to be happy.
Studying medicine?Why?What's that for?No idea,but one thing for sure,i am interested to know about human.that's why i am here.Everytime when i found something new and interesting,i would be so excited.Luckily i still have the learning will.
A new day,a month to state exam.No more asking how,action is more important.

L-O-V-E

L-o-V-e!What is that?I don't know,i have no experience in that.Family love i knew,friendship i knew,others i have no idea....
Suddenly realise a lot of things,love is not easy.Tear?Quarrel?Fun?Joy?Why and how?What and who?Which and?????
Yesterday i finally finish my Histology first exam.Finally,thanks for CH,my main consultant,who help me to study in in less than 2 hours for a topic.Thank you.Thank you.
Yesterday Eason,Jason,Jeffry and Wei Jie cook us dinner.I cook "bat kut teh" for them.Hoepfully it's delicious.I didn't try it because i am too full.
Recently nothing much,only been busy about EXAM and EXAM!!!
Ivy is not feeling well,hoep her get well soon.

Shopaholic?

Today Ivy and I supposed to go buy only toilet rolls,10 hangers and extension.BUt .....end up we like after mega sales in Malaysia.Guess what we did,opps,pai seh to tell.I bought 3 pairs of boots in one day.Ha ha.Cool.I love them because my 3 pairs of boots don't cost as expensive as my previous one,only one..now i have 3.Yeay!!!Thanks for my beauty and clothing consultant.Winks winks...she knew it.
Ivy bought a pair of thigh length boots.Wow is cool and sexy! BROWN colour with ribbons.i like them so much,i think she looked really skinny in that pair of boots.We have fruitful shopping today.

December

Merry X'mas?Happy new year?Oh no,exam is around the corner.Must "gambate".Wish me luck.

Raining&raining

Cooking porridge now,CH not feeling well.Hoepfully he get well soon.I was talking with Mimi yesterday night.I told him about the email content which Ivy,Ah Eng and my sis wrote me.I have no idea whether he went to read my blog or not,but he was saying really make me wonder a lot of things .I am not angry at him,i am not..er...i don't know how to describe the feeling,but i was feeling funny when the moment he told me until now.I don't know what i need to do with myself,no idea at all.Running our of idea again.Hai doesn't like this kind of feeling.

He told me though he doesn't want to be here,his dad want him to be here,but in this 2 and the half years,he never even once think that he is here because of his dad.He said this is only the process of life.We need to go through this.We are born to study,we need to do our task,we must live for our own.He said he only wants to get the degree,but by choosing this pathway,he didn't lose anything but the only thing is-- time is longer than other degress.I don't know.For me,i suddenly lost myself again.Just lost in the air,I clearly knew that i have no time to hesitate or reluctant about what am i doing now.Who do i did all this for?Myself?My family?My future?

Aih...i have no answer for these questions.All these so called question have been bugging me for almost a week liao.I hope i can get answer for all this,actually i think the answer is already there but need sometime for me to rearrange my mind setting.I hope i can cope with it soon.

Cake of Kiev

Our russian sir told us that this is very famous
Ukraine's food-Cake of Kiev.Doesn't look good anyway.It seems that if u never try this,you have never been to Ukraine but we are here almost three years but this is the first time we bought.Let me try and let everyone knows,isn't it that good.Ha ha

Escaping from reality

Currently i am doing nothing,blogging and chatting and searching for "Baileys Shake"recipe.My eyes really pain after crying.I don't want to think of anything else first,just trying escape for a while.....Reality is always so mean....

Raining+Crying=????

Outside is raining again.The weather is quite cold.I am crying but this time not in heart.I really couldn't stop my tear running down my cheeks.Luckily nobody is here,Alvin went out,Ch went to his dreamland.
I check my mail,i saw an email from Ivy baby,no idea at all what is that about,purposely i didn't want to open it,i wanted to delete all my junk mails first.BUT opsss,when i deleted one of those mail,the email pop up.I started reading it,and couldn't stop my tear from running down my cheeks.I end up crying and crying and crying.I know i haven't been doing my best to be her best friend.I knew i could have be there whenever she needs me,but i think most of the time i was not there.I felt so bad about that.Really thanks her for that email which as long as an essay.I knew i am lucky to have them here.
May be i shouldn't have blog all these up.Making everyone who loves me and concerns about me worried a lot.Tiong Eng who are so far in Australia also has been worry and wrote me a very long email too.I think i should re read his email again and again and think about what his suggested.
Currently still feeling no energy to proceed but i know i need to,time doesn't allow to me stay.Times wait for no men.So i must be motivated and start working again.Thank u Tiong Eng,Thanks Ivy and Vinvie and of course never forget our "Dato" Eason.Thank you for loving me so much.

Raining...My heart...

Outside is raining,my friend in Scotland told me that there has been snowing for the past few days.Scary!!! Now is only mid of november.Outside is raining,Ivy baby and Vinvie baby went to have a nap.I think i am going to sleep too.My heart is raining too.I knew that i can never give up,i still have a long way to go.I must stand----tahan.tahan&tahan it.NO WAY for me to give up.
My younger sisters and brother taking me as example,i shouldn't give up so easily.Stop asking why and how,just start working is more realistic.Hope one day i will be higher and better.

Giving up?

I choose to be here.I insisted i want to be here.My mum who really loves me a lot putting down her pride to make sure i can be here.But now i suddenly felt that i have no energy to continue.Went for histology exam today,trying to clear my exams which accumlulated for almost a month.Alvin and CH already finish ages ago,I wish i could be like them.Or like Jeffry already finshed all his exams,Anatomy and Histology.He asked me a good question,why didn't i take the exam,how can i take without preparing it,didn't know how to answer.

Today the sir didn't let me pass,i never angry at him.I am so frustrated,can i do better?Do i have the ability to continue?Will i drop out anytime soon?I knew he never let me pass so easily because he wants me to do well.I felt bad too.I want to do well too.I don't know what is the problem with me.I really can't do better?I think i really phobia,i scared i will flung my state exam and need to transfer,need to retain.I don't want all these to happen.I have no energy,time doesn't allow me to do so too.

Tell me?what can i do?What can i do to help myself?

Belated Aidilfitri--Selamat Hari Raya

Selamat Hari Raya kepada Saudara dan Saudari....Still remember this lyrics?For malay Aidilfitri.Ha ha.Just now...Hmm should say yesterday,we were having port luck.The "theme" was all malay food.We had nasi tomato,ayam masak merah,ayam kurma&fried chicken.Yummy yummy and the dessert are..SAGO with condense milk,banana&apple and "Nasi Arya",made from nisan Melaka.Really best.
The worse things is poor,silly me,people normally cut their finger while cooking but i cut my toe.It's really terrible,had been bleeding for more than an hour i think.Everyone was so worry.Ch took clothe and handyplast.Alvin preapared a "icebag" from his facial tower and ice.Cheryl was busy preparing "Scott tissue" from Mal,everyone was so busy.I really appreciate.I knew i am the luckiest person,that's why what my blog is named so.Ivy and Vinvie were scolding me for walking around but everyone knew me,i can't stand still.
I don't know did everyone else enjoy the food or not,but i am yummy yummy.Hope to have this time of food gathering more frequent but opps..going to get fat very fast....all lemak,all oil,all santan....
Very happy day...enjoy...

Riot!

YO this is jing's GuestBlogger-identity shall remain annonymous.
Just wanted to share some photos of our elusive jing
(me thinks this blog hasn't enough photos ;)

Dont we all love Jing?


Lalala.

and now,GuestBlogger signing off. Going to Jing's Apartment for our Malay Food Cookout :)
i will be back if i can steal more time!

tatas for now.

6 something....

Amazed,I woke up 6 something then on line until now.Of course,feeling happy to chat with khong ming, pin yong and tiong eng too.Wow chatting can used up many times.I realised this.Anyway,Mr.Leong Khong Ming,thank u ya trying entertaint me,ha ha.
Hopefully internet at home working by today,if not i still need to use dial up to on line :(.Really pray for that.
Eason,another best friend of mine.Thank you for concerning so much about me.Don't worry i am ok.I will never do anything.Like i always told you,things are fated.We can only do our part.Am i right?
I must do what am i supposed to,nothing else.

To know or not to know?

I want to know or i don't want to know?I cannot decide.Today he told what happened and what he did that day.Then i get to know that where he actually went,what he had did for the day.Do i want to know all that,i felt relief to know that.But when that particular moment he started telling story,i suddenly felt that i don't know what respeonse should i give.Should i just listen to him?Should i give comment?I don't know.I think i act weird.He felt so too.May be at the same time he started to worry that am i going to tell anybody else,of course i won't,if u told me no to do so,i promise i won't.
Anyway thank u for telling,and this cleared up a lot of things.Thank u.

To know or not to know?

I want to know or i don't want to know?I cannot decide.Today he told what happened and what he did that day.Then i get to know that where he actually went,what he had did for the day.Do i want to know all that,i felt relief to know that.But when that particular moment he started telling story,i suddenly felt that i don't know what respeonse should i give.Should i just listen to him?Should i give comment?I don't know.I think i act weird.He felt so too.May be at the same time he started to worry that am i going to tell anybody else,of course i won't,if u told me no to do so,i promise i won't.
Anyway thank u for telling,and this cleared up a lot of things.Thank u.

Am i silly?Am i stupid?Am i.....

It's already a week since he angry at me,am i really talked without thinking?Am i silly?I don't know.May be sometime or most of the time i talked nonesense,without i myself realising it.But again..why he is the person who noticed all these????
I wish i have a heart made by metal or iron or ferum i don't know.BUt i wish to have a heart which does not get influnced by emotion,how i wish.May be i should choose to remove my Limbic system,so i won't be sad,unhappy,depress.
I kept telling myself to be generous,to be patience,to be polite,to be whatever as long as must be good and kind.Again i can't help myself had funny feeling,then started to act weird.I cannot continue to be like these.
Never stop telling myself to be patience,kind and thinking in other's shoe....and must pratice it....

Sad?Depress?Jealous?Unhappy?Giving up?

Last Saturday,supposed to be a very fine day.We wanted to go cultural hall,Malays are celebrating Ramadhan.Ivy wanted to wear her new dark blue kebaya,and i was going to wear my yellow "nonya" blouse and black skirt too.Running out of time,so end up we didn't go because we decided to go church to support "MIMI" singing.All of us went to church,Ivy,Cheryl,Vinvie,Zoey and I.
Everything was fine,I was having fun but suddenly the weird feeling come into me.I don't know what kind of feeling is that.Sad?Depress?Jealous?Unhappy?Giving up?I don't know i have no idea at all.Luckily Ivy,Vinvie and Zoey making lot of jokes that make me more comfortable,making my mind more occupied.
I really scared of myself.Sometimes,I will feel so aimless,don't know where to go and where to start.I don't want other "things" to bug me.I just want the highest concentration in my study.I just want to do well in my study,i would be satisfied.But again and again,I knew nobody can help me except myself.Gaining the highest concentration,is a very individual thing.First of all is need to clear my mind.
Hoping all the things will disappear in the air,how i wish....

Wish i get my internet....

Tomorrow fixing internet finally!yahoo!!!!!Thank you Choon Hua for putting so much effort to make me happy.I am really glad and lucky to have him.If not i wouldn't have survived,especially when i am really depressed.I didn't know how many time i coudn't stop my tear from running out from my eye.Lucky to have him to listen and advise me.

Hopefully evrything will be alright.Now the time really flies.State exam is only 1 and half month away.I don't know how am i going to cope with it.I am really worry,but except study,what else can i do.I always remember what Ivy told me by the time u graduated,"you are not only a doctor,but be a dream person you have always wanted to be,just using this period of time here to update yourself,groom yourself,be whatever or whoever you want to be."This sentence is absolutely correct,we must be what we want.Living for anybody else will make life difficult.We must do the right things and which did not harm our dearest one,that's already good enough.

Really hope can get my internet fixed tomorrow.Wish me luck.

A Special Dedicated to him

Special dedicated to Him
Thank you for all the things you have done for me in these 2 years.I am so sorry if sometimes i made you feel stuck between you and your other friends who i really not closed with.All this while i am talking only from my point of view and never seeing from your side.I am so sorry,i have never noticed about that until you told me.
I knew that u try to make me feel that i am good,we can't be together because u have your own criteria.I knew and i understand.Feeling can't be forced.I never wish any changes after telling you.I only wish to have what i have now.Having u concerned about me,having you around when i need you,i don't want anything extra.
I hope you will be happy, can do whatever you want and get whatever you wish.So be happy,i am satistied and happy to see you happy.

A Relief,Yeah I did it!!!!

It was a Sunday,Ivy,Vinvie and I went out.We 3 aunties went out for eggs marketing.We bought 4o eggs for a week.We went out quite late,so we didn't get to shop a lot too,only get some sundries for week....toilet paper...milk...toilettries and etc.
After come back,we are supposed to make Curry puff.Don't know why,i suddenly felt very depressed,i felt that i must tell him.I couldn't stand myself anymore.I can't see things go this way will benefit me.I told Ivy i want to tell him,I really scared of consequences,a lot of things running in my mind,my younger sister's word,i really don't know how.I felt very unhappy,depressed.I just feel that i want to let him know.I trusted that i knew him well,he won't act weird,i believed our friendship won't be so light or fluffy until he wouldn't care for me anymore.I turst him.
After Vinvie baby came to Ivy"s room,we told her that i am going to tell him off.Poor them,they were arguing cause helping me think how to tell him.I felt very bad bout that,i don't want it to be so complicated.I just want him to know why did i over sensitive to what he did,why did i expect more from him than others,why am i willing to share lots of things with him.I just want to let him know,telling a true me.
Finally,i went back.I made my curry puffs too but they were not as nice as what ivy and vinvie did.I think theirs more like curry puffs.My curry puffs are burnt.but still can be eaten,not that bad.
After dinner,taking bath.I told him.Ha ha,the situation was really awkward.I was shiverring.He told me not to.End up he is the one who comforting me.He said he knew it very long ago.May be it's a bit "zha dao",but at the same time feeling so good that he never act weird.He promised things won't be changed.Now already a week.Everything seems fine.He is doing what he said and i felt good too.I felt a burden out of me.I don't know how to describe but it's really light.I no need to hide anything.I can fight or quarrel(joking) with him as i wish.No need to pretend.Seeing that things not going to happen between both of us,I knew i am still far from what he wants.Ha ha,may be he wont admit this.Just let it be this is my assumption.
So i feel really great now.Now my task is to study and do well in my studies.Nothing else,I don't want my parent to worry about me.I want them be happy.At the same time,i want all of my friends be happy.Life is only once,either u r happy or sad,u need to survive or get through it.
Thanks him for being such an understanding friend and trying to make that it's not my problem that we can't be together.Ha ha though i knew it clearly deep in my heart,but i really appreciate what he trying to do.If i sometimes negelcted his feeling,i am so sorry about that.

Cold,windy day

Today supposed to be a wonderful weekend,but the weather turn up too cold.I did nothing,watching DVD in Ivy's room.Doing nothing,blogging on line.Feeling lazy,too many things happen in these few weeks.Having exam,feeling depressed,feeling lucky and blessed,feeling happy.Mix feeling has been happened all the time.
I was so happy my sis got her job she wanted.She is now working in Prudential.One night,Ivy sms me and ask me "who you living for?Yourself?"I am not living for myself.I am living for my family.I want them to be happy,healthy.I don't want them to worry bout me.
About myself now,studying is the most important thing to do.Nothing else,couldn't have think more than that.I am lucky to have Ivy,Vinvie,Alvin And Choon Hua around.I know i am.Vinvie always reminds me must make sure myself are happy.Alvin and CH tolerating all my mood changing in sudden.Feeling so grateful to have them.
Hoping that everything will fall on it place.Hoping that everyone is happy.I wish...i pray...

ZZZZZ

Lazy to blog...Nothing cross my mind at the moment.

Went to Epatorial Beach

Yesterday we went to seaside.First time in Ukraine,Ivy wore her new bikini.She doesn't look fat all,but she kept complaintning she looked fat.Ha ha,this is girl's word.7 of us went.Ivy,Cheryl,Alvin,Choon Hua,Gary,Suan&i.We took lots of photo.We only swim for may be 20 minutes,and we end up spending the whole afternoon photo shooting.I wish i could slim down fast and can wear Bikini as well.Ha ha ha.May be not so soon in future time,but need to work out that.
Read my sister,Siew Kang's blog.I felt like tears going to run down my cheek soon.Did i scold everybody without reason the few day before i came back,if yes,i am so sorry.I don't mean to be like that.I wish i could hold all the precious moment we shared together.Looking all the photos we took during the holiday.I felt so warm.
Has been back excatly 2 weeks,sometime felt that time pass very fast,sometime very slow.Felt nothing at this moment,hoping that everyone would be happy,eapecially those around me.Ivy will be happy all the time,vinvie will get what she wishes for.Alvin&CH will be happy as well.Suan will be getting what he wants as well.For myself,i am happy to see others happy.
By the way,today is latern festival.Happy moon cake fistival to everybody.I wish i could with my family....How i wish.Wish them will get whatever they wish...

BAck for 3 days

I am back to Ukraine for 3 days but it seems like 3 months.Really hard everytime when just came back from Malaysia,extra missing my family and friend.Felt that lots of thing not yet do,but it's a cycle.We need to face it to grow.Now classes already started,going to class as usual from 8am until 5pm.This sem the time table is very packed.State exam coming but don't know a single thing.Today went for first hospital class,it's really interesting.Felt like a doctor.We are having general surgery cycle now.The sir is very funny.He is kind.
Nothing else to write at the moment just feel like going home.Being some warm hugged by mummy.My mummy really great.She send me a lot of food stuff through ah Suan,my little brother who is from Kuala Krai.He is really great.He 1 person carry 10 pieces of luggage for us.4 is mine,2 is ivy's and for is His.He is really nice.Thank him.
Felt so grateful to have mum like her.I am really lucky.She probably wanted to bring whole Malaysia for me if she can.She is really the greatest mum.Thank her.I love her.

Going Back

So unwillingly to go back.Might be blogging and crying at the same time.So better don't write too much,Thank you for those who call me up to say good bye.I am so grateful and gald to have them.Especially Khong Ming calling all the way from Korea.Thank you,My best friend forever.I think that's all for today,need to spend more time with my family.Good luck to everyone elso.

EX-New HAir Style

So called new hair style--
I wished my hair could back to like this,when i just walked out from Cut Above.Too bad,it's not

A new start

Yesterday i got a call from Zoey.She told me that,new rules:maximum 9 people in a group,that's why we will be forming a new group with some new members.I really have no idea how is the new group going to be.Anyway a new head start,hopefully is a good one.Wish me luck.
Suan supposed to go back today.End up he got kick out from the waiting list.I think he's so happy he no needs to go back yet,can stay home for another week.Another week is really long for us.I understand his feeling.Being at home,is always the best.Eat home cooking,doing nothing at home is the best feeling.
Everybody asking when will you be back again,i don't know,it could be a year,it could be a few months later.I don't know am i coming back for chinese new year.I wish i could.At the same time,so worry about coming state exam,histology and anatomy.It's really a stone in my heart for now being.I don't dare to think how am i going to face that.Anyway working hard and studying smart is the thing should do.No shortcut to achieve success.
Gambateh to myself and everyone else.....

My London Trip-Siew Kang My Sister Graduation

Finally my exam finished on 29 of June.All my worries and stress flied off,I am flying alone to London to attend my elder sister Siew Kang's graduation.I left Simferopol on 2nd July evening by train.That's my first time,take train alone in Ukraine.Everyone had been worried about my safety.I was fine with it but i am worried too,i will get a coach with 3 other guy inside.Luckily i got a coach with one aunty&her son.She is kind.We didn't talk much but she's alright.

I took Chez Airlines,transit through Praha.The airport is really busy.The design is almost like KLIA.Actually i have no mood at all to remember every single scene i saw,i looked.I couldn't wait to see my mummy and daddy in Heathrow Airport.It's like a dream.i couldn't trust myself doing that.My mummy and daddy will meet me up there.

Being stucked in Kiev airport and London Heathrow was not a problem anymore,I met my dad and mum.I was so excited,talk non stop.We went to my sis hostel at Colindale.We took "BLACK CAB" for 50 pounds.That's really a bomb to my dad's wallet.

We were there when bombing happened.My lovely,younger sister,cried when we called back.She said u all must come back.End up we didn't get chance to travel around because the bombing lead to underground and all buses need to stop temporarily.What a waste for my daddy and mummy.But they like London a lot.They said they would like to go back if have chance.

The attack by terrorist really mess up our journey.I need to go airport at 6 in the morning.4 hours before departure we were needed to check in.No doubt,Heathrow is the busiet airport in the world.It seems like "pasar malam" in Malaysia.

I left London at 8 of July.Heading home,couldn't wait to see Ma Ney and my other family member.Before can arrive in Kota Bharu,I need to fly off and landing for 5 times.It's really a tiring and boring journey because i was alone.Finally i reached home 10 of July morning.The flight delayed.I hugged Ma ney tightly.My sister cried when she saw me.
But time really flies,I am going back this saturday. :(...

Time Flies....

These are my betest buds who made themselves free and available to meet me up.Thank you them.I felt really grateful.Thousands and millions thank you with cannot be described my words.

This holiday i did nothing useful.Sleeping and eating is my "occupation".Today has been sleeping for the whole day because not feeling well.I think i am emotinal sickness.I felt heachahe,stomach ache and pain in most part of the body.I think this most probably because of going back too soon. I ate Keropok which came all the way from Terengganu which gave by Ma Ney's cousin,yummy..yummy...after a really long nap.

Uncle Anthony went off to Netherland,I felt bad not in time to call him to bid farewell.Only can wish him all the best in future undertaking.

Time flies,a lot of things i am supposed to do i didn't.Example meeting all the people i should,really wish that time can go back.

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All the words i typed gone in one click.I clicked wrongly,all the words gone.So lazy to type it again.:(

Finally I get myself a blog

Ivy my best friend has been blogging for ages.She has been telling me to do a blog for very long time ago.I didn't.Telling her next time and next time,wanted it to make on a special day,an easy remember day.Finally choose today.Another week to go back to Ukraine--which I am so unwillingly but have no choice,because of life need to proceed.
This morning i was just back from KL by train.A rushing but enjoyable trip with my whole family except my dad and my lovely sister who is busy with tuition,couldn't make herself fit in our trip.13 of us went,really a big amount.I think next time i must bring flag to be a better tour guide.Ma ney and her family and a lot people else went.I buy nothing.Only a purse for myself,present for someone and nothing else.This time shopping trip i am fruitless.
Ah,should say this holiday i am harverstless.Didn't buy anything new for myself.Feeling overspent for the whole holiday,so don't dare to do or buy anything new.Never mind i am pretty lucky to go to London and Australia for this holiday.I am the luckiest person i think.Ha ha.